Sunday, February 25, 2007

Silly Me What am I Thinking

Okay, so it comes down to this, the magic number is two. That is how many guys there is a possibility of. They are both cops, a pro. I work with one, a con and the other I don't work with him, a pro, but he lives in another state, a con. While I really want both I more apt to go with the one who is in the same state. But then it comes down to relationships in the work place which could be bad. The boss says as long as it is kept under control, then no problem. However, I have done the whole dating in the workplace (aka military) and it didn't always work out okay.
So today I am with workplace guy, I was very much up in his personal space, every opportunity I got. I'm trying to make it obvious of what is going on in my head and I think he is perceptive to it but still not sure. It was bad, I would accidentally kick him with my shoe and then brush off his knee for him. I have no control what so ever. He was showing me something on the computer and I was nonshallantly rubbing his knee with my little finger, while pretending to lean forward so I could see the computer screen better. Now I feel bad because this should not take place in the work place. If I had the gumption then I would just say hey look why don't we meet for coffee on this day at this place and tell him then but I am as always chicken. Mostly out of fear of rejection, and I know the worst he can say is no thank you. Why would that be so bad I have been rejected before and I'm still waking up in the morning. I really just want to call him and say why not catch that movie that we both want to go see. Psycho me still does not have the nerve. With all the other (married) men I work with I am the Alpha Female and do not take their crap. With him I am a scared teenager afraid I might not have a date. He did make a comment as how I was messing him up when he was logging on to the computer earlier, so that gives me a little hint that I do get to him I just don't know how much.....
As for out of state guy, well I talk to him on the phone often and email lots, and I'm going out of state to his state for some training in April, which we already plan to hook up when I am there. As to what might happen I do not know, what happens happens. I'm pretty sure there will be nakedness involved for quite some time, at least until I am satisfied.

Sunday, February 11, 2007

Odd Facts About Things I Thought When I was Five

We all think weird thing when we are kids and do not know any better until we are told or learn differently.

Odd Fact #1: I thought that back when they had Black and White TV that the real people saw in black and white....It could have been true, evolution does make since, but it would take centuries to evolve from seeing black and white to color, not the twenty some odd years it took to invent colored TV.

Odd Fact #2: I thought Transylvania was in Pennsylvania because they sound the same, I was also afraid to ever go there because that is where Dracula lived. In elementary school I learned where Pennsyvania was and it was a state and the Amish people live there, not Dracula. In Middle School I learned that Transylvania is a part of Romania. Still not sure if Dracula is real or not....